Striptease

Wikipedia describes striptease as a performance, usually a dance, in which the performer “strips off clothing to arouse sexual desire by displaying the naked body in motion. The ‘teasing’ part involves the slowness of undressing, while the audience is eager to see more nudity. Delay tactics include additional clothes being removed, putting clothes or hands in front of just undressed body parts. Emphasis is on the act of undressing along with sexually suggestive movement.” Tara’s one-night stand with striptease is worth to read.
Judgement or not, you had to find out something for yourself and you did. I think you should ultimately feel proud of yourself for being the kind of person whom is honest with themselves and honest with others. Any man should appreciate a sexualized heteorsexual woman and her desire to be desired.